Suddenly remembered something weird
2 Comments Published by Apocalyptus on Wednesday, January 25, 2006 at 11:54 AM.
Yesterday all of a sudden I went a few years back down the memory lane. I had no reason to do so but then I had nothing more interesting or constructive to do as such in the evening either.
'R' was busy with work (and so she will be for the next three months as her working hours have changed from 7:00-15:00 to 15:00-23:00 hrs in the evening) so I didn't have anything to do or any company after leaving office. Hence I came home and put on some music and preferred to give in to the nostalgia while sipping on some vodka and smoking.
I remembered one of the weirdest things I had ever heard from anybody quite some time back (almost 7 years back).I was in the 12th standard then. There was this guy called 'X' and he was one of those very close friends of mine. We were in the same school, same class, same section. Once he was looking very gloomy. I noticed but thought may be it was one of those occasional mood swings everyone has from time to time and ignored. But he remained so for quite a few days. He was looking depressed, troubled,hurt. After more than a week passed, I couldn't help but ask him what it was. He hesitated for a moment and then said he too felt too suffocated from inside but it was something he wasn't sure whether he should share with somebody or not. I said if he didn't wan't to share it's fine but if he did then I was all game for giving him an ear and may be finding some way out of his distress. After that what he told me was probably the most shocking thing I had ever heard.
It was the time when The TV channel "TB6-Mockba" was being aired in India by the cable operators and within the first 2-3 months it was very popular as it had certain programmes for certain audiences at certain times. Early in the morning on sundays (as early as 2:00 a.m) they used to put episodes of "Playboy" on air and we suppressed, oppressed and therefore depressed Indian teenagers used to wait for that for the whole week. "X" was no exception either. For one month, i.e, four consecutive weeks he had watched four episodes of "Playboy" and with that his appetite for sex-education had only increased. Can't really blame him because it was quite natural for a 17-year-old guy.
He wanted more of it. But, on the fifth week, when he quietly got out of his bed and without making any sound, advanced towards the TV-Room, fully convinced that everybody else in his house was fast asleep, he saw the TV-light fluctuating in the TV-Room and he knew there was someone already there. He just peeped through the semi-opened door and saw his father staring at the TV-screen with an open mouth and eyes that weren't even blinking. He thought may be his dad wasn't feeling sleepy and that's why he had come to the TV-Room. But then he looked at the TV-Screen and saw what he was watching. He was shocked !!! He came back to his bedroom and couldn't sleep all night. The same thing happened in the next week and the subsequent weeks also. "X"-'s dad was about 55 years of age at that time, father of two children and
on the verge of becoming a grandpa (X's elder sister, 8 years older than X, was married for a couple of years and pregnant then).
X told me "I know it's not a good thing to watch porn but at some point of time every guy of my age group feels the urge and becomes unable to supress the desires within. There is nothing wrong if I watch those once in a while just to satisfy my curiosity.I'm not doing anything taboo or harming anybody. But if aged people like aour dads too start doing these deprieving us, what to do? Besides, I always thought of my dad as my hero because I could find no blemish in anything he did but after this I feel ashamed to be his son."
I didn't know what to say. I was dumbfounded. I even tried imagining what I would have done if I were in his position but couldn't come up with any suggestion. I just shrugged off,patted him on the back and left. We're still in touch but we never talked on this issue again.
But I heard that even now, his dad who is 62 now, has got so addicted to porn-watching that he watches porn (on CDs) at night everyday openly without even bothering what his wife or children might think or feel. And poor 'X' has to stay inside his own room and has to 'satisfy' himself with his own old stock of still nude photographs of actresses and models stored in his PC. Even now he can't watch movies in his PC as whenever the light flickers a little bit his dad starts doubting and asks him what he is watching. Bechara !!! I only wish he gets a chance to go away somewhere from that place. As long as he is in that house, he will always remain 'suppressed, oppressed and therefore depressed'. High time he moved out.
'R' was busy with work (and so she will be for the next three months as her working hours have changed from 7:00-15:00 to 15:00-23:00 hrs in the evening) so I didn't have anything to do or any company after leaving office. Hence I came home and put on some music and preferred to give in to the nostalgia while sipping on some vodka and smoking.
I remembered one of the weirdest things I had ever heard from anybody quite some time back (almost 7 years back).I was in the 12th standard then. There was this guy called 'X' and he was one of those very close friends of mine. We were in the same school, same class, same section. Once he was looking very gloomy. I noticed but thought may be it was one of those occasional mood swings everyone has from time to time and ignored. But he remained so for quite a few days. He was looking depressed, troubled,hurt. After more than a week passed, I couldn't help but ask him what it was. He hesitated for a moment and then said he too felt too suffocated from inside but it was something he wasn't sure whether he should share with somebody or not. I said if he didn't wan't to share it's fine but if he did then I was all game for giving him an ear and may be finding some way out of his distress. After that what he told me was probably the most shocking thing I had ever heard.
It was the time when The TV channel "TB6-Mockba" was being aired in India by the cable operators and within the first 2-3 months it was very popular as it had certain programmes for certain audiences at certain times. Early in the morning on sundays (as early as 2:00 a.m) they used to put episodes of "Playboy" on air and we suppressed, oppressed and therefore depressed Indian teenagers used to wait for that for the whole week. "X" was no exception either. For one month, i.e, four consecutive weeks he had watched four episodes of "Playboy" and with that his appetite for sex-education had only increased. Can't really blame him because it was quite natural for a 17-year-old guy.
He wanted more of it. But, on the fifth week, when he quietly got out of his bed and without making any sound, advanced towards the TV-Room, fully convinced that everybody else in his house was fast asleep, he saw the TV-light fluctuating in the TV-Room and he knew there was someone already there. He just peeped through the semi-opened door and saw his father staring at the TV-screen with an open mouth and eyes that weren't even blinking. He thought may be his dad wasn't feeling sleepy and that's why he had come to the TV-Room. But then he looked at the TV-Screen and saw what he was watching. He was shocked !!! He came back to his bedroom and couldn't sleep all night. The same thing happened in the next week and the subsequent weeks also. "X"-'s dad was about 55 years of age at that time, father of two children and
on the verge of becoming a grandpa (X's elder sister, 8 years older than X, was married for a couple of years and pregnant then).
X told me "I know it's not a good thing to watch porn but at some point of time every guy of my age group feels the urge and becomes unable to supress the desires within. There is nothing wrong if I watch those once in a while just to satisfy my curiosity.I'm not doing anything taboo or harming anybody. But if aged people like aour dads too start doing these deprieving us, what to do? Besides, I always thought of my dad as my hero because I could find no blemish in anything he did but after this I feel ashamed to be his son."
I didn't know what to say. I was dumbfounded. I even tried imagining what I would have done if I were in his position but couldn't come up with any suggestion. I just shrugged off,patted him on the back and left. We're still in touch but we never talked on this issue again.
But I heard that even now, his dad who is 62 now, has got so addicted to porn-watching that he watches porn (on CDs) at night everyday openly without even bothering what his wife or children might think or feel. And poor 'X' has to stay inside his own room and has to 'satisfy' himself with his own old stock of still nude photographs of actresses and models stored in his PC. Even now he can't watch movies in his PC as whenever the light flickers a little bit his dad starts doubting and asks him what he is watching. Bechara !!! I only wish he gets a chance to go away somewhere from that place. As long as he is in that house, he will always remain 'suppressed, oppressed and therefore depressed'. High time he moved out.
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Dev, I agree that your friend was indeed faced with an embarassing situation. But I don't agree with the 'shocking' part of your theory/opinion: dude, men don't necessarily lose their sexual appetite at 55. Why blame his father? That old guy's sexual life was probably over with his wife: why blame him for watching a little soft porn?
Well, even i remember those days..I remember Sushma Swaraj asked in parliament to ban that channel :)